Shez ill, has temperature n flu and she was 104 day before and 99 yesterday. hmmph n i miss her so much, i wana see her, i wana see her badly but i cant. i wana luv her i cant. i cant do anything. its so frustrating. i feel like being numb n smiling, thts it.

the more m luving her these dayz, more dry replies i get, i hav got her confused, soundz like i am forcing her into and its like she wants to tell me not anymore, its over and i am the only one tellin her to come back, maybe i will stop soon, maybe thats better for her, u hav to sacrafize life i've heard so many times, i will do tht for her, she might think i left her which she certainly wud but wht can i do,m demotivated, yes shez ill but she can say few words. :) gotta hide my luv wid my smiles, i gotta hide this pain with smiles i got, i gotta live with these smiles i got, all i can do iz smile n hide. But i luv u and i'll b luving till the end of me.

m lookin at my hands n noticing the lines on 'em, wonderin wht they mean, wht they hav for me init, but then ALlah says tht we can change fate, whts written can b changed by our will :). i dont know wats written for me. m curious where life will take me. Enuff for today.